The Curve Ball That Came My Way

July 25, 2008 | Category: Love & Relationships

I thought I could bring myself to blog about something, anything. I feel a tonne of weight in my heart, although I do have something important to say.

My vacation with him has been canceled. He and I… well, we’ve put everything on hold for now. Why? He’s been transfered back so last minute that it has been a roller coaster. We spent what’s left of his duty hours (a whole 7 hours of it) emailing back and forth trying to figure out where this was going (seriously, you should see the amount of emails in my inbox!). In the end, it was left dangling in the air because he had to leave and I needed to decide.

Hence, the ‘time off’ I needed…to decide…well, to join him. I’m not…not yet. It’s been such a roller coaster ride and it needs to slow down. There’s certainly something there, him and I. There’s also so much to comprehend and way to many words needed to be said in that short period of time. I guess we both got too caught up missing one another and wanting to be with each other so much that we forgot to talk things over.

Everyone’s been asking about him and if I was okay, yada yada yada. I don’t have to energy to keep explaining everything over and over and over again. It’s draining everything that I have in me. Close friends have been extremely encouraging and understanding about the whole thing. How can you not love them? :) Anyways, they had suggested to me to take a short sabbatical to join him but there’s no point, at least not now because he’ll be away for training then for work as usual.

As exciting as it was, really, it’s now on hold (not over, if you’re thinking that), how long I really don’t know, I’m not the one who decides (looks up in the heavens); only time will tell.

So yeah, that’s as far as my explanation will go; not that it was necessary for me to explain and I think I handled that curve ball with a wee bit of grace; not perfect but certainly not sloppy. :)

Right now, all I want is people to get off my back about it. I really need a peace of mind. I need my space. Let me breathe.

2 Comments

  1. charlenediane
    on July 25th, 2008
    1

    I’m off to Bali in a couple of weeks if you feel like joining :)

  2. Dee
    on July 25th, 2008
    2

    Charlene: Thanks for the invite m’dear, so sweet of you. My girlfriends & I are now arranging a trip to Koh Phangan or Vientiane or somewhere nearer mid September. So I’ll skip Bali for now, but do enjoy yourself there. :)

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