Four Days

May 24, 2007 | Category: Love & Relationships

Today is day four.

Today, I’m so angry at myself.

What did I do that was so wrong?

What did I do that was so bad to cause the huge rift?

Maybe I don’t deserve anyone in this world. Wouldn’t be so much better if I was dead, so no one would have to deal with me? Giving you the peace of mind that you need. I believed from the beginning that I will never have anyone who loves me enough. Right now, I feel so unloved and uncared for.

This is why, it’s so hard for me to admit to anyone how I feel for them. Because I know, it will never last even for a minute. How did I manage to have something so amazing one day and completely opposite the next? If God had intended me to go on like this for the rest of my life, well, I wish for the rest of my life ends right here this very minute.

My heart hurts. Every single being of me hurts. I have this weird swell on my hand which I have no idea how I got.

All I need is someone to tell me that it’s going to be okay.

If not. Then. Dear God, please take me now.

4 Comments

  1. Rambling Mind
    on May 25th, 2007
    1

    Don’t worry, if it’s true love, then all will turn out right. You have to have some belief in yourself.

  2. Dee
    on May 25th, 2007
    2

    RM: Thank you.

  3. The Snark
    on May 28th, 2007
    3

    It’s going to be ok.

    It it doesn’t, someone is going to get a visit from me.

  4. Dee
    on May 28th, 2007
    4

    The Snark: It’s okay, you can cancel the visit. It’s fine now :)

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