Friendship Fittings

May 22, 2006 | Category: Reflections & Musings

I’m with a group of people, serious conversations, not-so-serious conversations, laughters and the flash of cameras.

I look at each and everyone of them, so happy and carefree. I, on the other hand, just trying to figure out where do I fit in all this. Suddenly, I’m warped into this little world of my own. I just smile, not saying a word.

I think to myself, everyone has something to talk about but I don’t. I just sit there, like a silly fool absorbing whatever conversations I listen to. I tell myself, snap out of it you silly sod. You fit. Or at least try to.

Imagine, you walk into this store/boutique and while browsing around this ‘dress’ catches your eye. It looks beautiful on the hanger, then you wonder if it fits you. You shrug and tell the shop assistant you would like to try it. In the dressing room, you slowly unzip the dress and then try to slip it on. As you zip up, it stops half way. You sigh. You take a deep breath and continue to zip up. It doesn’t go up till the end. You sigh again and say to yourself, I want it to fit. This dress fits me. I know it is. But it doesn’t. You give up but never negative, you know you’ll fit in one day.

You see, fitting into a new dress is just like making new friends. You never know if you’re going to fit in until you try.

I have made many new friends for as long as I can remember. Friends come and go, as I’ve learned. It is always the matter of whether we fit each other like a pair of gloves or have the same wavelength. Even if it doesn’t, you’re friends anyway because that’s just the way it is. You hang out with them not because you have to, it’s because you want to. You know you have at least one, two or more things in common with them.

Childhood friends, clubbing friends, work friends, movie friends, gay friends, smoking friends, drinking friends, coffee friends. There isn’t a friend out there whom I know of that fall into one catergory of friend and that is all-rounder friend, or in dressing terms an all-rounder dress. A friend whom I can do anything and everything under the sun with. Ultimately, someone who fits. Nothing else fits as all I have are one dress friends; one for each occassion.

Strings of laughter are plenty.

Familiar conversations of similar interests and aquaintances.

Tying a bond of friendship.

With only one uncertainty, whether I fit in any of them.

2 Comments

  1. JoMel
    on May 22nd, 2006
    1

    No man is an island. Somehow you will fit.

    We are often the greatest enemies of ourselves.

  2. Shan
    on May 22nd, 2006
    2

    I had a friend like that - someone who was so cool and secure with themselves that they were able to understand the web of mess that makes up little ol me. And even after seeing me at my worst, they still thought I was the best thing since sliced bread.

    Sadly I messed that up. My fault but I’ll know to be way more careful of taking care of the important ones in the future.

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