I Don’t Want To Be A Lampost

February 22, 2006 | Category: Love & Relationships

As an overall person, I’m usually quite optimistic despite the occassional cynical remarks that I tend to vent out. Normally, I’d prefer not to dwell on issues that bother me but unconciously I do. ALOT. Like the past few posts on love and dating. Seems to me that every other person is getting a fair share of happiness when it comes to relationships and I wonder, don’t I deserve at least a part of that share too?

People may find it peculiar considering my view on marriage is the complete opposite as of being in a relationship. Personally, I find that both is similar only marriage is a more formal way of telling people that we want-to-fuck-each-other for the rest of our lives. Of course, unless otherwise. I know people who’s been telling me that I’d be far better off being single and what not. They also must know why I don’t want to be single and why I’m always whinning about being single.

Let me tell you this, I’ve been single since like forever, okay not forever but long enough to actually feel like a lampost when you’re out watching a movie with two or three other couples. Long enough to actually feel unloved whenever you see your cousin’s husband/boyfriend calling them just to say ‘I miss you’ or ‘I love you’.

Perhaps I’m just taking all this a little too seriously. Then again, I can just sit there and wait for the apple to fall of the tree can I? It might just never fall. It might just decide to rot there. So instead of being the reactive person I am not, I prefer to be the proactive person that I really am and do something about it. What am I going to do? I honestly have no idea whatsoever. All I know is that I don’t want to be that pathetic lampost anymore.

Someone else however has an idea, she left a comment on my blog this morning. She said,

Yes.. yes.. come to KL? Perhaps me brother can date u? I am not kidding.. Please ignore me if I sound rude to you but I am sincere.

Sincere she is alright and bloody serious about it too. I was rather caught off guard and the surprise thereafter. She seems quite keen and excited. Jas, I’ll communicate with him and see where it goes okay? :)

I love my single state. I love the freedom I have and the fact that I don’t need to answer to anyone except myself with the things I do. I love being independent and being able to tell people that I did ‘all that’ on my own.

On the other hand, a nice odd bloke would be cool. So next time I do go to the movies I won’t feel like a lampost anymore. Now isn’t that just swell?

2 Comments

  1. Jeremy C
    on February 22nd, 2006
    1

    Hear hear! well said, dee :)

  2. Adam
    on February 22nd, 2006
    2

    I once remember a friend telling a girl on a date “You are like a lamp post”.

    She was deeply insulted and told a common friend who told us. ;-)

    Actually what my friend ws saying was that she stood out from the crowd - aloof, giving light and blah, blah. No wonder he is still single. But the lady is married - to another guy.

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